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“I am merely a
canvas, searching for a scribe
to write me in love.”

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(via graciouswords)

change ur pic b4 i unfollow u ok?

anywayz.

i will unfollow cuz i cant reblog writing this without feeling soiled.
not gay! ok?

i am merely a scribe and a canvas 
searching for a muse, or slightly betta, a miracle
to reconstruct the shattered remnants of my hert and soul.

but the physics of love,.or more specfically my hert, it doesnt require much logic or carefulness, 
just the parts of love, care, kindness openess, and tru beauty. (um for a miracle it would be almost flawlessness in those areas. of which i kno a few.”
with those ingredients. the emotions in my hert can create a flame, which will ignite my passion for yall, for her, and as in the nature of love. it will build itself.
if u will come.”

Mr. faithless with a broken hope of tomorrow.

cuz i cant see it well with all my hurt.
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help me and bear with me ok?
i hide behind my werds and my arrogance.
to hide my injury, for good reason.
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and now unfollow sory.
i need to tell followers/angels/snowflakes/christmas lights/princesses/beacons/ and rock godesses this and i dunt want peopl to get confused
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ok empathy: the speak now tour is my pink floyds wall. at least to me. personaly

the speak now tour is my pink floyds wall. at least to me. personaly

epic and flawless and cute, but substantial.

its visionary and mysterios, but mostly almost decieving.

only in that it is so much more better and more than wat u would eva think it would or could eva be.

i thank Taylor not only cuz shes like flawless and beautiful as a person, and the Speak now tour is like a werld that speaks and morphs and swayz to the music of Miss Taylor, ———-it actualy seems like either it wuz built for it, or she created or made the werld. :)

i prefer to think the latter, like 
Miss Tay is our modern day Goddess and Princess playing both roles each when necessary.

if i were to never see her again, i would regret it every morning and every night, and i would be the bitterest man in the werld. realy:

mostly cuz there has been no other show done better that i have seen so far that covers every part and medium and range and angle and versatility as Miss Swift and everyone involved. its picture perfect, from the flawless vinyl recording, to the array of light sounds, and stories told in the speak now tour.

i find myself starting from the outside with a brief glance and wondering, what is it that intrigues me about the music and then looking further to the speak now blu-rayz concerts and tours. and then i realize, wait a sec. thats y it just stood out. the it factor? or something truly special about this?

and then after a few minutes. its magical, it transports u, into a werld that seems to make almost too much sense, cuz everything just seems and feels rite in it.
and i realize not one detail is wrong. its flawless, from Miss Tay to the lights to the scenery and the storylines.

which then makes me want to think, well if Miss Taylor and her crew got the skillz to make this rite, all of it. flawlessly. then, how will her record sound on my systems which dont have flaws either coincidently. :)
then
i dim the lights. i adjust the volume. and turn on the music. loud, but only up to what my ears and the speaker can handle.

and this, this is wat it comes down to. the record. the soundstage, the sounds. each note, like each detail in the show of speak now. 
FLAWLESS, but i dont think flawless only.
my thout is that. :)
my second thout is.
i call this music listening experience. magical, epic. grandiose. intricate and bold and beautiful and different. only cuz of the fact that of every note on the record, whether it be 100 sounds on one song. or like 100,000 sounds on back to december. /its 
without flaws and the rite notes. with the rite emotions at the rite times. i suppose. i dont kno 
everytime. its hard to make everything werk, most of us aim to just get by. 
but Miss Swift and a few other female musicians. they thrive only when they become something more than a average person. more than getting by. instead aiming past the moon to the starz and getting 9/10ths there.

which is 100000000000 times better and farther than the moon. :) just saying.
:)

everything, its in the rite place. for every single detail
and not only in the rite place.
but the best places :)
Miss Taylor.
if ur were to ask me two werds that i first think when i see her show or hear her music.
Magically flawless

the next two would be: 
epic and beautiful

im sory that speak now tour has ended. cuz that was a one moment in a lifetime, but the best moment i have eva felt so emotional and moved by.
and i wuz not a moment. it is most of the time i listen to the speak now record and watch the tour.
even still now.
there is something thats realy important of getting everything in its best places.
its for peopl who realy listen to the music and watch the tours
its for the peopl who are music enthusiasts,’
Its for the peopl that care about her and her music and realy spend time to get to understanding and knowing it

if i could ask for one thing in the werld it would be that Miss Taylor build on her skyrocketing skills to make a epicer and amazing next record,. one that trancends time and space and everything. something uncomparable to anything.
meybeh u could say its like heaven.
yes. 
Taylor Swift is definitely a Rock Goddess

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it wuz how i wuz feeling b4 i failed all of u. i let u down. i kno. its realy messed up and confusing cuz i dint believe in u.
i got confused. i sometimes dont understand wat is goin on. in this crazy life where im told im crazy all the time. and everything is not happening.
like these werds i write. they dont exist. or u. and i spent the last three years believing in these werds. and all of u in my netwerk.
i lost my faith. i stoped believing. i got hurt. i couldnt hold on, end then i went into a spiraling depair freefall.
:(
its my fault. i messed up. my beliefs were not stable cuz mom and dad tell me everything is not happening and im crazy. all my life. it confuses me. when i write this. and they say. its not there. when i see it. and iread it. rite here. it confuses me and its low to trick me like that. like it makes me not understand anything and never get anywhere and lose confidence and lose every arguement. its unkewl and a total powertrip to say everything i do and say neva happend. and everyone i kno doesnt exist. for decades. its wrong and messes up my head and my emotions. after a lifetime of it. being told that all the time.:( 
ITS NOT A EXCUSE. ITS TRU AND ITS LOW. FOR ENIMIES TO DO THAT. IT KILLS MY BELIEFS AND HOPE AND CONNECTIONS TO PEOPL AND CONFIDENCE AND PRIDE AND STOPS ME FROM EVER KNOWING ANYTHING, ANYWAYZ IF U WANNA BLAME SOMEONE BLAME ME FOR NOT BEING STRONGER THAN THAT. :(
IM SORY. its my fault. i never wanted to hurt u. i wanted to protect u more than myself. i got tricked i think and then hit with werds while on the ground and then i stoped believeing. and thats when i lost u. all of u. but also less importantly. thats when i lost myself. and everything. cuz nothing matters anymore. i tell peopl outside. fuk my life. i dont give fukk. and im serios and deth.
imean. wait. not deth ok.
anywayz despair sucks.
i care and love u all.
i miss u
i fuked up
i hope one day u forgive me.
im going to stay here
i have no computa tho.
or money
my mom is angry-er even more than usual at me
yall deserve better. so im beggin for u to forgive me someday. until then i will wait until my life is destroyed by me. of course. since i gave up on life. after failing u all……………and the strange thing is after giving up everything and freefalling into abyss and impending slow deth. i dont even care. i lost u. thats all i think about nowadays. if even i can think, cuz alot of times i cant think anymore. :( i gess i dint forgive myself either.

its sarah m. 
she wuz at lillith fair.
there were actualy two sarahs at lillith 
one wuz sarah m.
one wuz sarah b.
they are both amazin.
 :

im sory yall
i love and miss yall:

okempathy:

G                    D/F#  
Step one you say we need to talk
    Em                 D        D/F#    G
He walks you say sit down it’s just a talk
             D/F#           Em
He smiles politely back at you
             D       D/F#      G
You stare politely right on through
               D/F#          Em
Some sort of window to your right
             D       D/F#      G
As he goes left and you stay right
              D/F#             Em
Between the lines of fear and blame
                   D     D/F#      
And you begin to wonder why you came

  C             D                Em
Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
            G             D/F#
Somewhere along in the bitterness
    C                   D                Em
And I would have stayed up with you all night
             G             D/F#
Had I known how to save a life



Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you’ve told him all along
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you’ve followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he’ll say he’s just not the same
And you’ll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

okempathy:

its flyleaf:

I WANNA B THERE FOR U:

:

im sorry fans and followers.

i love u too.

there has been complications.

u kno

my mind. its not werking rite.

hasnt been since i got back from the hospital

i blame the meds

not the hospital

:

its frustrating for me also,

im not happy witout u:

okempathy:

• audio skywalker prototype beta
• sagitarius
• losing u of course. fam netwerk hackers coffee hackers. going on permabrain vaycay
• letting yall down and breaking ur herts. yes i used to neva fear too.
• yall of course…….music……..writin……..
• beauty perception intelligence beauty
• yall of course
• not gay
• date? huh? i neverz herd of that werd. wats that werd, date?
• 5 ft 9 and 1/2

part uno

ok empathy: Like the Rain.

okempathy reblogged jayarrarr: Like the Rain.

jayarrarr:

She takes showers of an evening,
She sees no need to start the day fresh —
Sleep doesn’t dirty her, much, and dreams
                   are (mostly) bright and hopeful things.

She takes showers of an evening,
She washes away the day
                    (sometimes she scrubs)
She counts the bruises.
They remind her
           of where she’s been.

Her angst is lightly drawn
          and purely existential. 

——————————————————————————— ur ability to capture my sentiments are uncannily awesome.almost more than coincidence i tend to think in my life. i rarely attribut things to coincidence. just saying../ i think sometimes there is more to life than chaos and adapting, as if there is more than darwinism, like a unchanging destiny or in many instances. that life is not a series of coincidences in fact, for me personaly i doubt coincidences. i think the idea put in that puccini movie, wuz that our minds. underneath our consciosness, constantly calculating and observing and more details than our memory can hold. creates the destiny in the short and even in the long term, its like example. i see out of the corner of my eye for a millisecond. a reflection of a girl behind me and to the left of me. tho i dont realize i prob got many details in that snapshot of time, and through calculations i have a schema of that girl, which i dint realy notice, cuz i wuz busy looking in front of me, trying not to bump into peopl meybe i noticed something in her attire, without even realizing it. it might have been a artistic expression on her clothes. but the thout wuz just a flash, barely discernable all i feel is uncertain feeling. u kno feeling scared and also intrigued. it may make me wanna visit a art gallery in the future. at some point in time. i think my mind werks that way only in that it is good at gestimation and knowing and figuring out lifes details of what i want and who i am, sometimes. mostly without me knowing for the most part. i call it intuition. and gessing possibilities, but still that only helps with probable chances rite? not future predicting to the point of 5 years. as u get farther and with more possibiltes it strays farther into the unknown or farther from the line of accuracy i suppose. cuz of the gesses of possible possibilites. and the most likely one. but it doesnt explain y it seems like i feel a destiny, unchanging and leading basicaly to one outcome and one direction. all signs point there. i cant explain it. but mayb some of us, we get to a point where we have a unchanging path in a general sense, meaning most lead to one place. its unchangeable. the place. the paths they dont stray too far from being unable to get to that place. not moving too far u kno. lately i havent had faith in destiny. i lost my faith. i lost my belief. - in destiny in me, and sometimes immersed in despair, the werst thing of all, is im werried that i feel a lack of faith in yall this is neither here or there. i cant think :( wait will explain in next post

Source: jayarrarr

chels:

nickgerber:

Manifest Destiny

Nick Gerber remains one of my favorite photographers.

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tru empathy required. wait i dont have that sometimes. :/ no one has the rite answer all the time for everyone. adapt and lern. or fail. rite? shortcuts are ok if they are almost 100 percent effective in my opinion. adhereing to self ideals of course :) in this rapidly changing landscape of the modern werld. for some more modern than others. modern educated smart versatile openminded social citizens of tthe planet. knowlege defines ur place in priority in hierchy of modern impactful decisions. wait a minute! the werld doesnt do that! well then change the system betta. EVOLVE FOR THA GREATER GOOD.

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this is kewl :)

im sory everyone for being away

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firsttimeuser:

“I spent a great deal of my life being ignored. I was always very happy that way. Being ignored is a great privilege. That is how I think I learnt to see what others do not see and to react to situations differently. I simply looked at the world, not really prepared for anything.” —Saul Leiter

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